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broken_envyOk, so im sitting here with my heater on, in Covens, chatting with random passerbys and going though my LJ tagging enterys.
now im starting to wish that i wasnt, as its getting me wrilled up again.
god knows that it was stupid, but.. the past is the past and i really shouldnt let shit over a bunch of names get to me.
i shouldnt. but i do.
ive been f-locking my stuff now so that now one can go off at me. i dont like that at all. couse it just makes me whant revenge, and im not allowed to have those kinds of thoughts. not at all.
why? as then it upsets the balance in me and stars to bring forth ShaoLin AKA Zhao, the darkness in me. and that would be bad. she doesnt like to be disturbed at all that much, but it happens from time to time.
i deal with it though, i have to. just like i have to deal with bein a gt a meduim and other stuff of top opf being a shadow walker.
somedays its not far that this all happens to me, but then i think that its my blessing and my curse. i need need to buy new gloves and soon, i cant keep avoicing touching stuff thats not mine.
i also wanna get a reading by mori done for me, but... the times not right yet. i have to wait a bit longer still.
i also what mori to take a look at kiya - im worried about her. im scared for the person that i have feelings for. though i dont know what yet, i just know that i really, really like her. a lot.
im scared at times by it as its strange for me. but ill work it out. i always do.
Lana, Bear and Faerie friended me tonight and im going to see if i can get DN to - when and if i see her at all.
and value and i trust them with my lives... and i just want them top see me for who i am. really, in all aspects of my life.
Fish called me wise, as did rose. but am i really? i mean, all i am is myself and i say it how i see it.
thats how i am...
but anyways, i hope that DN or Angel are on tonight before i have to run of at like three AM in the morning.
doesnt matter though, ill leave a message on DN's yim with my LJ link.
anyweays, im in a good mood, so ill leave you all with some songs to grab from here.
Killingloneliness by H.I.M, All that i've got by the Used. and Feel by Robbie Willaims
now im starting to wish that i wasnt, as its getting me wrilled up again.
god knows that it was stupid, but.. the past is the past and i really shouldnt let shit over a bunch of names get to me.
i shouldnt. but i do.
ive been f-locking my stuff now so that now one can go off at me. i dont like that at all. couse it just makes me whant revenge, and im not allowed to have those kinds of thoughts. not at all.
why? as then it upsets the balance in me and stars to bring forth ShaoLin AKA Zhao, the darkness in me. and that would be bad. she doesnt like to be disturbed at all that much, but it happens from time to time.
i deal with it though, i have to. just like i have to deal with bein a gt a meduim and other stuff of top opf being a shadow walker.
somedays its not far that this all happens to me, but then i think that its my blessing and my curse. i need need to buy new gloves and soon, i cant keep avoicing touching stuff thats not mine.
i also wanna get a reading by mori done for me, but... the times not right yet. i have to wait a bit longer still.
i also what mori to take a look at kiya - im worried about her. im scared for the person that i have feelings for. though i dont know what yet, i just know that i really, really like her. a lot.
im scared at times by it as its strange for me. but ill work it out. i always do.
Lana, Bear and Faerie friended me tonight and im going to see if i can get DN to - when and if i see her at all.
and value and i trust them with my lives... and i just want them top see me for who i am. really, in all aspects of my life.
Fish called me wise, as did rose. but am i really? i mean, all i am is myself and i say it how i see it.
thats how i am...
but anyways, i hope that DN or Angel are on tonight before i have to run of at like three AM in the morning.
doesnt matter though, ill leave a message on DN's yim with my LJ link.
anyweays, im in a good mood, so ill leave you all with some songs to grab from here.
Killingloneliness by H.I.M, All that i've got by the Used. and Feel by Robbie Willaims
