[this part can be found on my Y!gall and DA journals as well.]
We all have our breaking points… so why do people find it funny to push us to them?
I am so fucking feed up. Up to my neck.
I see so many good artist each day in my browsing of the web and I try and review them all.
And what do I get in return? nothing in terms of reviews and that pisses me off to no end.
So what if my work looks a bit scrappy, is not shiny or coloured, and doesn’t stand out?
I mean, all I want is a little encouragement. I put the time and effort into my art – yea, I know that I have fucking trouble at times with it, but I try hard. How long does it take to hit the comment/review button and type up a few words? Not that long,. Maybe 3 mins, more if your doing an in-depth comment. But the average review only take about 3-5 mins to type up.
And so what if what your going to say has already been said? Im sure that every author/artist wants to here it from your proverbial mouth as well, you know? Its all encouragements.
I work on equal trade – always have and always will. I put time and effort and love into each art work that I do. So what if I don’t nail the character spot on each time. so what if I have shit inking skills and I don’t use refs for most of my art? I work direct from my mind to the paper – I find that refs hider me really. I suppose that its as im self taught. And im proud of that fact. I don’t need any fancy credentials from art schools – I had my entire drawing style and will to draw almost ruined in one year with the worst art teacher ever.
But I don’t think that its to much to ask for a little timer of yours in commenting on it?
No, I think that its not. But, I guess that others cant see that,. Its just view, look and then click away to the next page.
And ive noticed that ppl only comment on the shiny stuff. Why? its colour. I know that my line art aint the best, but for Christs sakes, cant you give encouragements to the artist or the author?
[But not this next part.]
On another topic, headaches and migraines SUCK! When I have a headache, I cant sleep, I can only lie in bed and think. and think last night i did as i couldnt sleep. not with the server migrain i had. so i thought.
And when I think…
My mind goes back to the past. Back to Her, Lindsey Chapman – Kauket. The one that tried to leash and tame this lioness and almost broke me. I broke off the friendship awhile ago and im still feeling the effects of it.
She was controlling. She almost broke me to the point where I was broken on the inside.
Know this. If you want to be my friend – anyone that wants to know me fully, or be my lover..
Leash me and you’ve lost me. Try and Tame me and you've lost me.try and Break me and you’ve lost me. Let me be myself no mater what I do, and you have me.
The moment you attempt to control me in any kind of way is the moment you lose me and ill start to pull away.
Yes, I will do things that will make you want to kill me. I will do things that will have you running after me screaming not to do that or your going the wrong way. I will do things my way or the highway. And if you arnt ready to follow me through hell and back, then I have two words. Piss off. As if you cant take me as I am, then you cant keep up with me. that my view anyway.
I have one that I love, and I expect that she will follow me in all my insaneness – just as ill follow her true her insaneness as well. it works both ways.
You follow me, and ill follow you when you need it, back me up, stand up for me, and ill do the same.
Just as I want the glory, doesn’t mean that I wont share it. Ill share it around, though at the end of the day, I want to feel like im valued. You pamper my ego and ill pamper yours. Give me respect and ill give you respect. Follow me and ill follow you.
I believe in karma and that what you give is what you get. Those that give, give, give and don’t get anything in return– there’s an imbalance there. You cant keep giving without getting things in return. You just cant as sooner or latter you will reach your breaking point and crash and burn.
And that’s all I have to say right now.
And I did NOT emo at all. YAY!
and if you read this and you have something say, then say it! disagree with me, agree with me, what ever! just if you have something to say, then say it. I wont bite you.